Another fail!

I just had to fuck up didn't i? I binged, i admit it was only a little binge compared to the others i have had, but still, i just wanted to fast and have that empty feeling inside me.


I haven't stepped on the scales in a few days because i am afraid of what they will say. I might get new scales because i don't trust my ones.


People around me have been noticing my eating habits and are starting to worry about me. I know it's nice they care but i just wish they didn't have to worry about me. They try ad force feed me and i hate it. I think that's how the binge was triggered today, they told me to eat this and that. And this evening i just though "Fuck it, i had that at lunch, might as well bloody finish the day of with a bang."


I guess i should tell you my stats. I don't really now my weight but last time i checked i was 108lbs which was Thursday i think. I am only 5 foot. My goal weight is 100lbs and my ultimate goal is 90lbs but i may go lower if i am not happy. Tomorrow i am definitely going to fast, i will just fake that i ate something. I hate lying to people that care about me but it's got to be done. I hate being this fat.


Thanks


SweetandSavoury xxx